I wrote this a few years ago when I was trying to pick myself up after a few unfortunate experiences with people who tried to tear me down in spite of my kind treatment of them. At first, they made me feel just so inadequate compared to others, and then I thought, "No! That's utter crap and I'm not letting them make me feel bad about who I am!" Since then they have all proved themselves to be unworthy of my friendship and I have lost much respect for them. What goes around usually comes around.
I may not have ten books published,
I may not read all the latest best-sellers,
(I may not have even read today's paper)
I may not belong to the Mensa group,
I may not win the duathlons or ski races,
(In fact, I may even have trouble walking around the block now)
My body's shell God created may not be the healthiest,
nor the most gorgeous-looking,
I may not have children who win "All Round Kid" awards
or who are in the enrichment class
or who will become doctors and lawyers,
I may not have the title,
"Top Volunteer of The Town"
bestowed upon me,
I may not be the key person sitting in a church congregation,
(Indeed, I may not even occupy a seat very often at all)
I may not have the fattest billfold from a bursting bank account
and my house may not be the newest, fanciest or cleanest,
my fingers may not be able to fly over
the ivories on a Heinzman
or effortlessly pluck the strings of a Martin,
and I may not always sing in perfect pitch
or write the most melodious songs.......
I have a voice,
albeit quiet and small,
this voice sings
its own perfect sweet harmony
with the world and all who share it.
I have a brain,
a mind that thinks and ponders,
about many important things to me,
a mind that puts ideas and feelings
to pen and paper,
poems and songs,
living deep inside me.
I have a heart
that is honest,
open and inclusive,
and caring of others,
a heart that is kind,
generous and giving,
true to myself
and all my beliefs,
truest to my family and friends
with whom I share all I have,
a heart that pumps in overdrive,
its strong rhythm
with all else -
the internal rhyme and reason
many search for and never find...
this voice, mind and heart
are so alive with spirit
that they have taken on a life of their own....
and so even if all this life spirit
is not recognized and celebrated
by a single soul...
I do believe
in a place far beyond
my earthly existence,
it will not go unnoticed
and this spirit shall live on.....
Mother of Invention, feeling way better about myself these days!
Labels: Poetry, Self-reflection