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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

It's Here Again.....And So Am I!

It's sometimes hard to believe. I stare in amazement as I unwrap each carefully tissued and cushioned precious ornament from the box that has been resting in the attic since last January.

This time a year ago, I was sick with what I thought was the flu. As it turned out, certain enzymes that are indicated in liver disease were quite elevated (775 where the norm is 90-120) and warranted cat scans and perhaps a liver biopsy. The initial visit to a surgeon was on Dec 22, my 52nd birthday. I sobbed the whole way home. Talk about scared!

I was totally stressed, having just gone through report cards, and writing and performing the "Seasonal Concert" at school. I held it together throughout Christmas and took a leave in January to deal with whatever loomed before me. Liver Disease...yikes...people die from that and it didn't look pretty on the internet search which perhaps I should not have done. I cried all over the keyboard.

I tried to keep things in perspective as I slowly and sadly packed up the decorations and returned them to the attic. My tears flowed as I couldn't help thinking that I might never see these beautiful ornaments again. But then I thought how joyful it would if I did. Little did I know what would happen next.

On Feb. 23rd, I had what doctors called a mild MI, a heart attack. I was lucky that there was no heart muscle damage and they put a stent into one clogged artery. Things have stabilized and I am enjoying a more simplified lifestyle. I still don't know what might happen but I'm doing the best I can.

As I unwrapped the first ornament this year, it hit me like a ton of bricks that I was connecting full circle to my state of mind when I'd put these away. Indeed, I have lived to do this again. I must be blessed.

If I feel as if holiday preparations are stressing me out, I remind myself that I could just as easily be watching this from somewhere else beyond this earthly dwelling. Whenever I feel like I'm going to complain about the hurried tasks of the season, I quickly intercept with a thought about how much I value even the opportunity to have these jobs to do.

Yes, that time of year is here ...count me in!

Mother of Invention, convinced that I can still see the tearstains on the tissue paper, which perhaps nudged me to share this story.

18 Comments:

Blogger Maggie said...

Aww, MOI. My heart was touched. You made me want to cry too. Hang in there and holidays are supposed to be fun, so if you are feeling stressed, well my unprofessional opinion is you should stop and take it easy till you feel better. Enjoy the season for all its worth!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger Richard said...

Being grateful and making best use of every moment and opportunity is difficult at the best of times for the majority of us. We are too preoccupied with pursuing future goals (nothing wrong with that) that we ignore the present (I'll start exercising tomorrow, I'll read to the kids tomorrow, I'll start saving tomorrow).

Glad to know that you are still around and hopefully you will be around for a lot longer.

Dr. Internet is very scary, you get all the worst scenarios possible.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just relax and have a good time. Have fun decorating the tree and house!

Old Lady

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger Barbara said...

I'm glad you stayed around to become one of my favorite Bloggers. Enjoy the many beautiful and delicious parts of the holiday season!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger steve said...

"from somewhere else beyond this earthly dwelling."
You made me laugh, Mom, with this one. I must be sick, no?
You have maded it full circle,Baby, now go getcherself some Mistletoe.
Celebrate!!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

Maggie:
That's what I've been doing. I rest in
between baking, wrapping, blogging,decorating...shopping...! I had a Gr. 8 girl I used to teach come over for tea and she helped me deck the house! That was neat.

Richard:

Thanks, Richard! I'm extremely glad to be around still...we do get caught up in the busyness of NOW that we seldom have cause for these types of reflections. Sick people sure do though.

Old Lady:
See response to Maggie...We still need to get our tree and that's always a neat get-together at our friends' place who run a Tree farm. I taught the kids.

Barbara:
Thanks! I'm glad I got to "meet" you too! All kinds of delicious things are already happening! My choir has 4 gigs plus a pot luck dinner party with a wacky gift exchange! I enjoy singing so much! Then, my husband's office brunch at a nice hotel.

Steve:
Okay, Steve! I'm laughing NOW, but I gotta tell ya...there were pretty serious moments then...and I can almost make anything into a humourous situation. Maybe I needed some jovial person like you around!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger brooksba said...

Taking the time to enjoy the holidays, to celebrate the moments is so important. I'm glad that you are here to enjoy the season and hope there are many, many more to come.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger meno said...

A poignant reminder of why we need to enjoy what we are doing right now.

I really liked this post, and i'm glad you're here.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger Annelisa said...

Oh, MOI - It's really moments like those that make us realise what's really important, isn't it!? And that moment you realised you were still around - that's a treasure...

It must've been really horrible to go through that a year ago, but if it's any consolation, I've got a friend with polio, who though it was her last Christmas nearly 15 years ago - she was getting ready to get her hubby to dig out the decorations last I saw her!

Now, for the other news... I was tagged by Madd, and now I'm tagging you! (go see my post to find out what it's about) - I look forward to seeing what you come up with! :-)

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

Brooksba: Thanks so much..me too! I swear I will appreciate the coming Christmases for the rest of my time more than any others!

Meno: Thanks. It is neat when you share your own experiences and in so doing, you nudge them about something you consider to be important.

Annelisa: Yes, it was quite the moment ...a mini-epiphany. I'm such a sap! We never know what will happen in this life!

Re: Tag..I'll get to it sometime today! I might not write as much as you! You are an endless flow of words...hence, your blog title!!!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger Diana said...

I am extra thankful that you are here, too. This past year introduced me to you. The internet would be a much less warm and lovely place without your presence.

Funny. I think my Christmas ornaments and my garden are the things I'll miss most when I'm gone. (Things. Not people.)

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

Diana: Thanks so much for your nice compliment. Great to have met you this year, too!

Ornaments perhaps represent such happy memories over a lifetime. Hey, maybe we can take a few with us!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger red-dirt-girl said...

Wow MOI - you've got me in tears....i guess we all just need to be passing the kleenex around...stories like these are so good for me - helping to remind me that every second of life is precious - no matter what 'mood state' I'm in......thank you for the beautifully written reminder...and as for me, I'm glad you here unwrapping the ornaments again this year!

rdg

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

RDG: Thanks so much! I think I have some kleenex left over from last Christmas! Yes, talk about a major nudge!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Anonymous colleen said...

Life's close calls can really jar us alive! And isn't it interesting how things --as well as songs and smells-- can bring back a memory like you are there once again.

Did they ever find out why your liver stuff was off? When I contracted CFS (around 1976 when there was no such thing) it felt very much like I was getting the flu that never fully manifested but never went away! The only blood test that ever comes back abnormal for me is that I make anti-thyroid antibodies.

Was the heart stuff related to the liver. Did all this cause Fibro? How does it all tie in?

My friend Alex was not expected to make it until last Christmas... but she did and then went to Greece, and Iceland! But she is doing poorly now and I can't help comparing this year to last year.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

Colleen: Songs and many other things are the hooks we hang memories on!

My liver enzymes are still elevated a bit and they finally said they thought it was coming from something intestinal ...nothing horrible, just strange, so they're just keeping an eye on it every 3 months.

I got CFS/Fibro in '89 after a bad bronchitis ...I can actually remember the few hours that I felt it enter my body...my legs were so sore..quads and side abdtuctor muscles, plus upper arm triceps. It was pretty unknown then..the only test used then was Epstein Barr which means nothing. (Glad my insurance co. recognized it though!)A teacher my sister knew had it and my sister diagnosed it for me! Of course, my doctor didn't believe in it yet...he does now!!!

Strangely enough, just recently, my thyroid tests are too low but not bad enough to take meds, and it is usually connected to diabetes. I have tests every 4 months.

They said the heart was not connected to anything but I think it's just too coincidental. Then again, diabetes is a huge risk for clogged arteries because the sticky blood sugar attaches to cholesterol to = plaque.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
Blogger steve said...

Leave it to me to laugh at the most inappropriate times...you caught me by surprise insinuating that there might be some debate as to where you might actually end up after leaving this realm. What a Cliffhanger!!!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

 
Blogger Mother of Invention said...

Steve:

Well, you're right! There could be a debate! Everything's up for review when you do The Big Sleep. Jury's still out...It is truly the perpetual cliffhanger...hey, but you're still the master!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

 

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